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Assalamualaikum wbt.

I'm in class now. Subject? Information Technology. As I always did for the past two years. Our lecturer had assign us to do a presentation about ourselves. But you don't wanna hear me babble about this right?

It's been awhile since I posted and updated my pink-small-blog-corner. Short update : studying at Penang Matriculation College. Studying Physical Science. The next Einstein! Yippie! Yay me!

Life here is hectic. Busy. Not-so-relaxing. It's okay though. I'm counting days 'til 25th April 2011. My last day here. Can't wait to go back home and hibernate my unhibernated nights. I've changed through this process from a nerdy school girl to a very unstable-emotional-thing. Thing? Haha. That's a very 'comforting' word.

I'm just typing whatever I feel to exercise my fingers.

Bla bla bla blaaaaahhhhhhhhh...................

I miss the old days back then when the internet was my life. *cries*

xoxo,
Emma Pinkcess Diva.

Man. Life Sucks B!

Life after spm? ahah. they think its so great. well look at me? great huh?

"Oh deqma. u cant drive even if u have a drivers license. drive around with dad to show u can REALLY drive"

"Oh deqma. u cant drive. ko juz xbiase lg. tggu larh"

"Oh deqma. u cant do that. u cant do this"

"Oh deqma. blablablabla"

"Can i go to lost world?"

"No! Lost world IS at home"

so whats so great?

during ramadhan at Holiday Villa we were waiting to break our fast. so i talked about driving to skewl. my heart was so happy of the thought me driving. but hello? wake up emma. they just dont trust u they way ur friends do.

"Oh deqma. ure too young to drive."

that moment i wanted so much to cut my license. thank god there was no knife in front of me.

well duh! families are like that. sometimes u may think they're the ones who can comfort u but i hate to burst ur fcuking bubble. they do not! for me, im better off with friends.

Ohh Faten, Ros n dik jat. i love u dearly. u guys understand me more.

"Oh deqma. we cant fetch u at skewl. so take the bus"

then whats the reason for my fcuking license? got one but gotta take the bus?

Opsss! i better wash my mouth for saying those bad words but do i care that fcukinh much? nahh.

"Oh S*****. Dont say that bad word."

yeah. i wont let him say that word but im using it. ini dinamakan hiprokrit. emma mcm tu ka? yea. i love being a rebel. it feels so - fun!

i just cant wait to get outta home n live my own life. i wanna fcuking die.

not-so-love,
emma fcuking-punkcess diva.

[srry for the typing error. too lazy to double check. wut? spm abs dh so wt ape nk jd nerd. ahahah]

Mommy

Dear Mommy,

Last night was the worst night ever.

I'm sorry for what I did during dinner.

Sorry for the noises I made when cooking.

Sorry for the disobeying part.

Yesterday I slept early 'cause of the guilt I felt. I want to apologize earlier but not in front of Kak Long.

But this morning, before I went to school I apologise and thanks for forgiving me.

There's something I really want. Not clothes. Not money. Not love ['cause I know there's the love from you]

Maybe before you go to Mekah with Daddy I tell you. But not right now.

The most important thing is I'm glad we're OK and not fighting anymore. I'm a big girl now. As I told you before and I want to show you how much you taught me to be a better Muslim, daughter, aunt and friend.

Insya Allah, I won't be the childish Hazimah like before.

Thanks Mommy for naming me Hazimah.

I've searched on the Internet and Hazimah means female companion of Nabi Muhammad.

Wow! That's what I want to hear. Love you Mommy!

And Emma means universal/whole. Guess that's why I got lots of friends besides my loud mouth. LOL. =]

Emma Junior!

Today's the happiest day of my life! Besides the day when I was born. It's not that my MCE is over. Or I got a new pink stuff. Or I got a new car. But, it's the day when I got a new niece. Her name isn't actually Emma Junior but I wished.

She was born a week after the due date. She's the second child of my sister and brother in law, Mastura and Khairul Anuar. My sister with be "pantang"ing with my mother in Kedah, which is at my house. Can't wait until she comes home. But the real question is "can I really take good care of my niece?" and I don't want to give uneven love to her and her older brother, Ridzuan. Ridzuan's my first nephew and he's almost two this year.

My mission: To be a better Aunty Su day by day. Give equal love to both of them. Save up money to buy something from Girls because I promised my sister I'll buy something for the baby if it was a girl.

Yesterday and Today on Medical Leave

Have to stay at home sucks! With a capital S. I rather go to school and actually learn things. It all started yesterday during Islamic Studies AKA Pendidikan Agama Islam (PAI). There I was, in the pink of health (is it "in the pink of health", "in the pink" or "in the peak of health"?) and fit as a fiddle. I was fasting. Ate nasi goreng pedas at the middle of the night and for sahur I ate rice with sweet and sour. Mix it all together and ding ding ding, we have a winner! I was all like running a bit back to my class to get something and there it happened. I was all "Ouch!", "Youza!" and "I'm in pain" sort of motion. Luckily Ros was in her class no there was no teacher in so I called her to get some help. I don't know if I had gastric or what but I could still remember the pain inside my tummy. Ouch! That's gotta hurt.

Tumtatadum! Amirul, Ros, Wawa, Faten and Nong Nit to the rescue! Btw, Thanks for helping me out, guys! Then I was brought to the Teacher's Room and took a nap there. I think I really did took a nap but not drop dead sleeping like at home.

Ustazah came to me and said "Awat cik mah? Td ok ja. Loncat2 lg". But I was too-in-pain so I didn't say anything much. Just moans like a lil baby. Eww I was so pathetic. I waited almost an hour 'till Daddy came. He brought me home and we went to Klinik Azani. The doctor gave me a-one-day medical leave but I extended it 'till today 'cause I was so dizzy when I woke up today. He asked my daddy what form I was and shocked when daddy said I was in Form 5. He said "Laa. Awat kecik sgt?". Then he took his hearing-peoples-heart-thingy-mechanism and listens to my heartbeat and my stomach. That was kinda bizarre.

Not to mention the medicine he gave me was HUGE! My lil tiny throat can't possibly swallow that thing. Yucks! Plus, the horrible smell which means the horrible taste.

So now I'm just plain bored at home. Kinda worry 'cause I missed my Additional Maths class yesterday and today (so what if I'm a nerd?).

XOXO
Emma.

Cliques

Today my post is dedicated to all of my friends. I got many friends but I don't think I could write about all of them so I'm just gonna tell about my dearest so-called gang. I still remember the first day since I was in Form 1. I was sitting behind my best friend since Elementary School, Faten Nabila. We were in 1 Arif. There, I met with Syazwina. Through her, I met with Rosfariza and through her I met Shikin Faezah (she sat beside Ros). Then, we met Nur Nadhirah and Wahida Azlin because they sat behind Wina. This was how I met them. We became close as the days passes by. We decided to give a name for our relationship. We listed out many names and I introduced "Ohana". I got this from the movie Lilo and Stich. Ohana means family and family never leaves us behind. That's how we were. We went everywhere together. Even to toilets. What? We were young and girls need a friend even in the toilet. LOL. This is a brief intro about how we met. So who are the anyway?

I'll list Ohana Girls according to our birth dates.

Hazimah - Emma (me!)

15th January 1992. Nothing to say about me.

Rosfariza - Ros
Studying at: Ala kelas sebelah ngan Emma. Jumpa tiap 5 minit. Hehe.

19th March 1992. She's my friend that loves the thing that I love too - cats! She's the only girl in her family and the youngest just like me. 'Till today she's studying in SMJ. We were in the same class since Form 1 but started from Form 4 she picked Account so that's why we're in separated classes.

Shikin Faezah - Shikin
Studying at: MRSM Langkawi.

27th June 1992. One word - miss. I really miss her even though I was bullied her. She's the only one who has a sensitive heart. Not like the others aren't sensitive but she tends to feel offended with the others sometimes and I'm the one who coax her but sometimes I make her offended too. LOL. I can still remember the sentence she always use before telling us something, "xde larh" and we will tease her with that 'till she's in tears. But in a sad way but she cries every time she laughs so hard.

Nur Nadhirah - Nad
Studying at: MRSM Kubang Pasu.

15th July 1992. Nad! I miss you too. She's like the "Love Doctor". She will advice me whenever I got problems with my previous relationship. Yes! I had a BF but don't ask me about my pass. Anyway, she loves reading novels so I guess from there she got those "ayat jiwang" but hey, it worked. I'm still keeping her letters that she gave me during my ups and downs.

Faten Nabila - Faten
Studying at: Elehh sebelah Emma jew. Jmpe tiap 1 saat.

15th January 1992. Faten, There's no other way to tell you how much I appreciate you as my friend. I've known her since In diapers but at that time she was my sister's friend. We were neighbours. We separated when I moved to The States. We met in Standard 4 but at that time we didn't know we knew each other since lil. Our parents told us then since she moved to Taman University we became close friends since now. But now she moved to Taman Teja. Somewhere near. Not so far. Even though we used to fight a lot but look at us now. "haha" to the people who doubted about our friendship. I almost burst into tears when you told me you still keep my apology notes that I wrote on tissues. Aren't tissues easily disposable? I means you keep it safe all of these years.

Syazwina - Wina
Studying at: SMJ, kelas 5 Diamond.

26th October. She's the greatest. She wanted to be a dentist and pianist but now she wants to be a surgeon and pianist. Hey, look. I still now about you even though we're not as close as we used to be. I love you! She's the crazy one in OG (Ohana Girls) just like me so that's how we became damn close. Also bubbly and happy all the time. She has great leadership. Since Form 1 she was the monitor 'till Form 4 and now in Form 5 she's a prefect like me, Faten and Rose.

Wahida Azlin - Wawa
Studying at: Alaa. Kelas sebelah gak ngan Ros Toek. Hehe.

28th October 1992. We love the same thing - music! We used to read lyrics and sing together. Psssstt, I have a horrible voice. She used to be the person who gets "blurr" whenever we tell her something but now she's changed into a sophisticated young lady. Her mom cooks the best meals for us. And Wawa also loves kids 'cause her mom baby-sits.

There you have it. All about them. Thanks for reading.

XOXO,
Emma Pink_cess Diva